it's the end of the year
like really the end.
dont know how the next will be
but i know how this has left me.
thankful.
i guess when we're old years wont be so significant
we wont be in different classes
we wont have major exams
we wont have to leave environments(school)
differences will be much smaller
i guess tt's why adults dont really countdown
like what for
countdown and do the same thing all over again.
anyway this year has left me with
so many experiences
so many of everything
i dont know how to put them in words
so i made a video:)
and im so sorry
i wanted to be sincere and do everything myself
but i realised i cant sing so long
so the song's on repeat
and i realise i cant multitask
playing guitar, singing, trying to read chords and lyrics, recording
are really too much for me
and i was lazy to record again
my fingers hurt.
so despite the screwed parts
i decided to just put
anw it's already 4am plus now pls
if i still wanna record i think i dont need to slp
haha so i just spent so long explaining
so i guess u all should forgive me for the song.
i tried hard ready k.
i dunno if pple will see this but
it's dedicated to all the people who appeared in the video
the very people who made 2006
so very special.
(i realised i never take photo with priscillakohpuayhee this year so cant put inside! anw this song is to her too! but i doubt she'll see this but yes she also made 2006 good!)

P.S i shrunk the video so tt i dont have to upload for very long cos the file really very big so now it's become very blurand lousy quality! sorry!


and this may come as a surprise
but im still the same old me
and like i said
Some things They never change.
so this is special
to the special someone
who no matter what
made 2006
significant
memorable
unforgettable
and gave me
the best times of my life.



thankyou all.

what a perfect song.

thankyou rushan for picking up my payphone calls and thankyou meow for coming to rescue me yesterday.
home, woke early, wait, wait, wait, wait, call for help, wait, wait, rescued, shihlin, deathnote2, cab, class bbq at teo's, home.
woke late, late, surprise, kfc, sneak food, kbox, mind cafe, quelf, i command you to be silent, ready for takeoff, boing, you thwarted us again you vile beast, pictionary, douhua, youtiao, butterfly, thing with dousha and without, arcade, daytona, bishibashi, walk, teh tarik, home.

HOLA!

i'm back

and spain and portual was fun:)

i love europe.

maybe i'm biased.

like if i see old dirty buildings there

i'll be like

ohhh so cool and nice and wow

and i'll go take photo

but if i see in singapore

i'll be like

walao eh.

anw i'll talk about the trip another time.

anw

I LEFT MY PHONE IN PORTUGAL.

i was so depressed please,

cos i left it in the hotel

and only realised when we were leaving lisbon

to another town, on a one-way-no-turning-back highway.

it's like knowing it's there

but you cant do anything about it.

luckily my dad asked the tour guide

and they called the hotel

and they found

and the next group will go collect.PHEW.

thank god.

i think it's cos everyday we visit churches

and everyday pray

so god help me a lot.

really everyday go church there.

anw so i've no phone.

and i realised that

i can only memorise my mum's and dad's and home's numbers.

so i havent told anyone i'm back

so yah i'm back.

ok speaking the obvious.

anyway i shall post a pic of the cutest guy:))))

HAHAHAHAHAHA:):):):):)))))))))))))))

but i look so gross in this tmd.

and the actcute-test girls

hahahahaha.

i just finished my girl,
some korean show, i finished in less than a day!
so proud of myself.
the girl's super funny.
and i finished packing my files yesterday finally!
chapter by chapter,
very neat okay.
and i just packed my bag,
i made sure i didnt bring anything red
no red shirts or anything,
so yes im save from bulls,
they wont come dashing at me.
ok BYEBYE EVERYONE
i'll leave you all with a nice song!



ATTENTION JERM, CARMEN, HONG! GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR 2ND ROUND TMR AND THURS AND WHATEVER THINGS! I'LL BE PRAYING FROM FAR FAR AWAY. BUT I THINK STILL WILL WORK.

AND DAWN, *** WHEN I'M BACK! SMILE! WHEN U FEEL UNSMILABLE THEN GO THE BLOG AND LISTEN TO BOSTON OR YOU GO PLAY FOR YOURSELF OK!

AND RU, HAVE FUN IN BK REMEMBER TO WATCH THE SHOW BUT COME BACK A GIRL.

AND TX, MIU DONG WHEN IM BACK K!

AND KB, I DONT KNOW IF YOU ALL WILL SEE, BUT ESPLANADE WHEN IM BACK!

AND SHUYAN, OPERATION JY WHEN IM BACK. THINK OF IDEAS FIRST!

AND CAITOU!!!! YOU KNOW I FINALLY TOOK PHOTO WITH YOU SO IM GOING TO POST IT. NO MORE ME AND YOUR PALM. BUT ME AND YOU! FULL LENGTH SOMEMORE. TAKE CARE WHILE IM AWAY!




















walao my make up is so thick disgusting please.
and siao la
i talk so much
as if im leaving for few years
spastic.
ok byebye.

because i'll be away,

because i was late last year (so i decided to be the first this year),

because you'll think i'll forget (since i forgot your birthday, full name and even house type).

so HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY ANDY LAU!

good, you're alert!

okay your birthday

you're entitled to be CRUMPY.

i'll finally approve the photo you submitted super long ago

not the muscle one please. (PUKE)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, less-than-brother-brother.

today i walked so much please.
my mum really has a lot of stamina.
my sis and i almost died following her.
went with her to some sale in the morning
then lunch at chinatown
then went town for marathon.
when i finally saw my phone after
the entire walk,
i saw a message from my dad who was waiting for us,
he's so cute please.
"where are you all ? Leg pain, back ache etc.........."
hahahaha.
and while i was helping my mum delete msges
i saw other messages from my dad to her last time
"poisoned by air-con"
(i think he sent while waiting in the car while my mum was shopping)
"Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz......................."
"Hungry and thirsty"
so cute.

anw had dinner at beauty with family
then got forced by tanxuan to go ***.
after one hour debate ru and i still couldnt decide.
and tx won so we decided to go.
but in the end never cos long queue
so we went tcc.
i asked for more raisins for my drink but they never give more.
ahhhhhhh. everytime also cheat me of my raisins. pui.
and i took cab again!
@%#@$^%$^%$^##%$)(*&!!

and i like kings of convenience:)
i shall go watch now.
and jieying left today to climb the nepal crazy mountains
everyone please pray for her!!

i havent blogged since prom.
but i dunno what pics to put here.
so i guess i'll just put
my prom empress dowager!
(bigger than prom queen)
ya she's my prom empress dowager that night.
love the hair.
hahahahahaha.














and ten plus? of us stayed in meow's room:)
thankyou meow for the room!
and i was dying
cos my heels were killing me.
i think i'll just live a shortie.
i wont try to act tall again,
it's too painful.

met squashers yesterday after two years
and they are all bout the same:)
wah i miss playing squash.

then today i stayed home to paint!
painted using my sis' acrylic paint.
really quite exciting
but i mixed colours to get purple
but i kept getting grey.
then the purple i got in the end also very weird.
and while painting i finished watching my taiwanese drama.
then i met hugo cos she was bored.
i swear taxi companies should give me thankyou card
i take everyday please tmd.
anw then i ate my favourite korean food!
oh yay then went with her to sing emo songs.
we sang all emo songs and were very emo.
hahahaha









and our favourite of all time.
we duet this thrice.


haha we were so emo please.
thankyou so much.

anw dawn i had ***hour today yes we should meet for ***day soon!
but im leaving soon how.
if i leave u must wait for me to come back
then we *** okay.
cannot *** without me!

at the art gallery,
me: eh what is that? dou4 ya2?
rushan: ya bean sprout!
(then we walked nearer to see the caption)

and it said: tulip.
HAHA

and im very careful as im typing now cos rushan and i did manicure!haha i dont wanna spoil it! while doing i kept wanting to laugh cos i remembered that we ate d**** and f**** and we forgot to **** our hands. funny.
and please she has the coolest gadget in town. some nintendo two screen thing,
really crazy cool.
there's this dog you can keep as a pet
then u can play with it and feed it like tamagotchi kind but very real
then there's this toy for it
some "bubble blower thing"
then you have to blow
and i really really mean blow
into the bubble ring thing on the touch screen
and bubbles will come out!
like really you know.
i didnt believe at first
cos it sounds so out of the world
and i thought she was fooling me
and hello i'll look crazy blowing the nintendo in the bus
but she demo-ed
and really got bubbles!
then i kept blowing and really you know
high tech like dunno what.
and there's this crazy cooking game
by cooking mama, who's very strict
then u must really cook step by step.
omg damn fun and exciting.


pluck beansprouts tails, chop onions, chop meat,
fry onions. HAHAHAHAHA






























so cool please.

anw we met limmy the storyteller for coro lemon chicken but she had to go home cos her cousin was over to meet her to design "cousins tshirt" haha so cute.

met hugo yesterday and we went arcade hahaha. i havent gone for one million years. anw then we saw this machine that pushes sweet, like the jackpot grabbing kind. then there were big softtoys on top then we said it's bluff people one, wont ever win one blablabla. then that instant one dropped and the person won!!
then we went to play some drum game. haha i missed everything seriously, ultimate psycho-motor problem.and after i lost she played the next level some stef sun song and funny please i tell you. she just kept anyhow-hitting like really super fast and crazy and screaming HAHA. i think only an octopus can play that la.
and yesterday when i sang they said i rolled my eyes up like those ghost kind. omg. and my ex-sundayschool teacher said i look fierce. haha
and i just received a post from switzerland!so exciting!
and i saw the post secrets book i feel like buying cos im so kaypoh.
can everyone post secrets to me too!

i played taboo!!!
and charlyn improved a lot a lot, i suspect she memorised all the words since it's her cards!
and i bbq-ed like 20 plus? chicken wings im so proud of myself, and only some small parts raw and some middle size parts chaota, other than that very nice ok, at least i think so.
and tmr im singing again after so many months, i got stage fright!(real) i hope i dont faint on stage after one line or sth or start shivering or sing off key or lose my voice or tremble while singing or whatever. omg im going to practise 10 times before i slp. scary.
and the cab driver tried to kill rushan. i hope she's still alive cos she never reply me.
and yx, ru, lyn, me we're rice people.

legs: the part between pelvis and feet.
zinc: last transition metal in a row in periodic table.
and the explanation of how moon rotates around the axis.
lim en is crazily intellectual.

teabags: many of that person in prison break, the craziest one that keeps killing

WHEN I TALK BIG I'M VERY HAPPY.
YOU'RE VERY FUNNY.
I'M NOT REALLY TIRED.
SO IT'S REAL.
HAPPY?
BUT I'M HAPPY.
COS YOU MADE ME.

lalcscbsclalal.

today i realise i really dont like to make promises anymore. maybe it's cos people always make promises and when they promise me, i believe and i end up believing too much and they dont keep or we make a promise together and im the only one keeping and that person cleanly forgotten and i still hold on to the promise and remember and wish it will happen. i don't like to promise unless im certain it is as i promised. but when i promise to promise, people dont do what they promise it becomes so unpromising. but i believe the promise today the trio meeting we will keep. or at least i will.cos i promised.

finally finished prison break till season 2 ep 12!!!!!!!!!
exciting like siao please.
can the next one hurry up come out please.
sian i must wait one week per episode from now
so slow.

and i just looked back i've been sleeping at crazy hours these whole week
all wentworth miller's faultttt!!!

miu, hurry finish this dong square and join me in lifeless wait.

AH SEN MIN TIAN WAN OH MEN KE YI QI YAN CANG FUI!:):)))))

i just reread some letters i found from sec 1 and 2 and omg so funny so funny so funny.
i must find one day take all the letters out from sec 1 till now and reread all all over again.
those dong square crack me up.

i finished prison break season one!
exciting like sjb please.

"miu square dong square"
"zor ni"
"meh4"
"ymz"

sleep + youtube
wen, our lives.

i led a slug's life today. stayed in bed till 8pm omg. only left once to cook instant noodles. supposed to bring my sporty attitude and badminton racket to meet shuyan etc but really no strength to leave my bed. SORRY my dear! but nvm now u'll lose much more weight than me!!
today i really felt as tired as when im studying, think sleep ghost missed me and came back for visit. went out with family at 8 plus and in the car..

mummy: eh why mango(the shop) no sale ar?
daddy: got, very cheap, i brought one back from my office.

funny.

abandoned by previous owners
it stood lost and uncertain
it never wanted another again
it swore to itself
however dependent
however desolate
it shall just live with the small things of life
gone are the days it felt so alive
till one day a man
not first time he passed
but this one sweet time
he bent down and picked
the little dog up into his strong arms
not first time they met
many times neglect
but this peculiar instant
they felt they shared a moment
it felt understood
and he was full of care.
he brought it back
to the home of many strays
his love was for all
his care filled the hall
it grew to depend
it grew to accept
it grew to believe
have faith and forget
all that made it sad
it did cleanly forget
what matter's now
it's happily attached
the owner so full of love
it never felt better
it never thought anything
could be any better
it lived in it's world
of the owner alone
it jumped at every instant
to spend time with owner
every little gesture
even a few seconds a day
was enough to make it happy
enough to make it's day.
so filled with love and joy
it put all things aside
it forgot all it's troubles
it lived not for it's life.
to make the owner happy,
it did all that it felt
was possible
was permissible
was suitable
was comfortable.
little did it realise
that it was living in it's world
of imagination and dreams
of blissful ignorance.
to the humane owner
it was yet another dog
one it cared a lot
like he did to the whole lot
moments he spent
protecting each dog
he did his best
he treated them all equal
he just wanted them well.
little did he realise
his little acts of kindness
meant the world to the dog.
humans are always humans
rendered smartest creatures
the world is theirs to venture
dreams they soar above
the things they want to conquer
they never see the end
they have so much to handle
what is a dog but trouble.
the man grew to realise
there are many things in life
not contented to just making dogs happy
he wanted more in life.
he set out to lead a real life
a life he called a life
the dogs he had he still cared
but man is still man
accomplishing everything is highly impossible
he just had to rank them in order.
no doubt he loved the dogs
but he knew many other things he rather.
so the dog which felt so loved
was helpless and despondent
it knew it was naive
to ever trust so much
but yet again it knew
it never felt so much
for any other owner
or any living creature
it may be foolish
but it did felt happiest
the time spent with the owner.
it saw the owner leaving
but just stood at the doorstep
it played with all the others
and acted all the same
it looked so happy outside
it looked like it could call the place home
but deep inside it knew
it was the owner
which made anywhere home.
for the owner filled a hole
the dog never knew existed
the jigsaw that fits it
belongs only to him.
as the dog saw the owner
proceeding with his life
it barked and cheered him on
tears at the corner of it's eyes.
it knew it was just a dog
a hobby a passion a small thought
the owner may be it's world
but it is so minute in the owner's world
to love the owner
to prove it's loyalty
and as man's best friend
it'll watch him go away
and it'll be strong
it'll survive.
it wanted the owner happy and
it felt this was right.
it could suffer
it could die
to make all things alright.
the dog diminished
and slowly backed off
it no longer ran to the gate
to send the owner off
it no longer ran up
to lick the owner's face
it no longer showed all the joy
it actually contained.
the owner being the owner
whose kindness made him an owner
continued spreading his kindness
and great love.
one day the owner,
brought in a new dog.
one look it could tell
it was not of his sort.
it saw the dog
with great fur and physique
it must be a beauty
from the glorious pet shop.
it looked at itself
so pathetic and forgotten
it wondered if the owner
still remembered it's name.
it saw the owner
his happy smiling face
which once stared into it
which once was because of it
the owner adored the newbie
it made the owner really happy.
the dog walked away
but yes it was glad
the owner was happy
and that's still all it cared
it looked at the new dog
felt happy for it
it knew it was the luckiest.
it experienced it.
the dog remained in the shadows,
diminishing
as things of more importance
of more convenience
of more ability
come into place.
the owner was happy
it was all it needed,
it looked nonchalant
but behind it's back
it's tail still wagged
ever so vigorously
every time it sees the owner,
it loved like no other.

lalcsscbslalal.

cos we were supposed to hop on 171 then go town so it was rushan's house then my house then charlyn's house(coro bus stop). then reaching 6th ave then we called lyn and she had to run out from her house, really ran, from deep in then cross the bridge. then at hc busstop she called saying she reached then she was like "heng ah". then we were also quite relieved she's in time then when we reached coro bus stop we were talking cos we thought she'll board then we looked out of the window she was beside our bus, waiting. she never board the bus!! then we banged on the bus window and we were super frantic and cannot find her number cos very frantic then when i called her, i said "omg run!" and she ran in the opposite direction of our bus. hahahahahaha omg. she ran away then our bus left. she thought we were coming in cab to fetch her! australian kids. hahaha lalcsscbslalal.
then we met wen and went to rescue yunxi cos her slippers broke and she was stranded. then she used 3 plasters to stick her slippers back hahaha. then had ultimate crazy big jap meal at wisma then yunxi went back for work.
went lucky plaza to shop haha. PILIPINO minimart. try saying pilipino. funny.
at scotts nokia shop we sat there to play the phones. i set new record for their sudoku game in the phone k!!! and we changed wallpaper to our faces haha. and wen tried to bluetooth nice songs to her phone haha.
and then we cabbed to lyn's house where we prison breaked. today's an ultimate miscommunication day and everything we talked, felt, said were opposite the walls we're still trying to break. and we had big problem discussing prison break cos lyn's at season 2 episode 12, ru at season 1 epi 10, yx at 19, me at 4 and wen at one quarter.
and rushan says chessssi popcorn.
and after complaining about 9olock show from 9 to 10 we played taboo omg i love taboo. lalcsscbslalalalalalalalalal. i really winddrop, godgoldsick, laugh.

woke then had lunch with dad and joyce then went to meet caitou at vivo.waited 1hour and 21 minutes!! ROARRRR. but nvm i got over it ready. meow was bored so she came and join us. then met rushan and wei and we went for prata at al azhar. i bought a new shirt to wear when i go out with rushan and it's really not "i am with pretty..." which she's dreaming of. and today i felt like a fairy(which isn't positive) cos my stupid shirt which has glitter in front kept shedding glitter. ended up my face hands bag shorts shoes everywhere also glitter and everywhere i walked i sprinkled glitter. eee. and cos the previous time i was in vivo i wore heels my feet almost died when i got home so today i wore sport shoes hahaha.


on the way to vivo i passed by sa and i smiled to myself.
i saw the stairs on the slope. remember last time we always had to queue up on the stairs to wait to go into the lt. how janny seriously sleeps in every lecture. and how we hid janny's shoes when she fell asleep during lecture and it was too high she couldnt reach it.
and i saw the gate, how tanxuan jo and i climbed the barbed wire desperate to pon school, that was super scary. so high if we fell sure disfigured la.
saw the middle block, where i went every morning for supergood morning service that started everyday super super great. how everyday i had to find caleb cos he'll chope seat for me.
and the hall was there, where we always played our stupid games and we had pe there. there was this game we had to throw ball underneath the chair and i remembered how people kept moving and hiding their chairs haha. and it was where we had our orientation where we learnt my favourite indian dance and it was where we were the last time we went sa. when all of us crashed the o2 and went crazy and jumped around like mad and we listened to high and we cried cos we knew we were all going different schools.
and i saw the caf, where we always sat for super long and i remember the fruit stall auntie she's my good friend. and how we thought the western stall lao butch was very gross and dirty. and how me and bernie had to play hide and seek with our ct cos we pon gp and she caught us and kept following us, how we had to run through the back the bushes part just to escape her and how she caught us eventually when we peeped at her straight into her face. and actually the gp lesson was cancelled cos the tcher's on mc so we ponned and got caught for nothing so loser.remember how weijian tanxuan and weiwei were caught in the caf a the same time she was catching us and they hid behind the white board, so actually could see their legs so funny hahaha. remember how we'll always play guitar and sing in the caf. and i remember our fun fair which was crazy. we had to sell 500 coconuts in the caf and it was pure madness the whole day.and we sold everything and chopped coconuts until hand pain.
and i remember containers and classrooms. i remember everyone ponning econs and we told the teacher our class is gep so very small hahahaha. aand how we spent every lesson discussing everything except work, ended up drawing everyday. how we visit jokes.com like siao everyday and go to school and brag see who is funnier when actually all not very funny haha. and how we say "ha" then must laugh although not funny at all. how we formed the poners and attempt to pon a lesson everyday, and we actually did. haha remember we'll go to the hawker centre beside sa and drink boliao drinks and cheers, happy just cos we ponned. remember how bernie will push me up the stairs and force me to go for math which she refuses to pon. remember how all the guys mimicked the math teacher's face that kept trembling. remember andy lau's english how the gp teacher was so horrified hahaha. remember how i played scissors paper stones to decide if i should pon physics prac i lost but i still ponned and bernie or andy wanted to kill me.
remember at the students activity centre we'll go there collect our letters and try to steal chocolates etc that other angels give their mortals haha. and everyday very excited go and collect letter and write nonsense. and i remember how we always sit at the sofa there and talk all day and the music kept playing non stop.
and i remember the field. yes that's the best place. i remember my amazing touch sessions there. that was really ultimate. i remember trainings were crazy some days and we'll end up so so so tired but so so so contented. the tireder the happier. weird but true. then we really trained till so happy. and i remember red sleeves haha. and brinjal. and everyone, the seniors also very very helpful funny and nice.
and i remember tennis courts. i was in tennis and i went twice only i think. and i think i hit many balls onto the road and spent three quarter of the time picking balls. and i was in sfc also but i only went once and we played some blindfolded game and i had to follow two scary guys which i dunno.
and i remember the big steps, there's a special name but i cant remember what it's called, ya i sat there very very very long once waiting for rushan weiwei and tanxuan cos they had soccer i cant remember why i waited also. i remember rushan took physics. haha that's funny in itself. and i remember we had to draw this super big banner for lim en in the canteen cos she was leaving for australia and we ponned our lessons together to draw. i remember honeydew crumbs. i remember we loved sa so much we sang the school song in r&b version, rock version every version. remember we always went ikea and queensway cos very near. wahh suddenly i remember so many things and i remember it was really good all the time. amazing how much we can do in three months.
wah i miss sa all over again.

oh and yes i decided this morning that i should learn spanish
so that when i meet cute guys there
i can pretend and anyhow act like i understand
so right i decided i should watch my desperate housewives in spanish and put english subtitles
then i watched for ten mins then i decided really sian diao
they speak fast like siao and
i tried to copy them
then i really felt psychotic
cos no one at home
then alone speak weird language
really siao.
okay so i give up on spanish sigh
so no more cute guys
i can pack ugly clothes into my suitcase
and dress as grossly as i want there already
anw no one knows me
i'll try other languages soon!
italian, french blablabla everything here i come.
sayonara zai jian.

met tanxuan and jieying in town first then met caitou and we walked so so much we kept tripping. ate fake shihlin and my favourite korean food again and we saw this super tall cute should-be-model guy:))
you know i always think ang mohs that go cafe and sit read storybook all very cool and free and i always get very envious especially when im studying so tmr im going to act angmoh and go cafe and read storybook!!! i borrowed three today tmr shall read read read oh yay.
and last night i used a lotta music cells i played guitar until my fingers pain, this morning i used a lotta art cells doing my wood thing until i think got wood cuts my finger pain tmr i shall use sport cells exercise until my finger pain.
i go read story book now yay. anw i think i should take sloman to read someday i buy 50bucks never read at all really waste money k. think i shall just read for fun someday! but bring to cafe and read so uncool sian.
DAWN YOUR PHOTO REALLY VERY FUNNY. when im depressed i will take out and look hahahahaha. welcome to my world tmr(:

I hope you’re doing fine out there without me
'Cause I'm not doing so good without you
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years
I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you
And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me


phile eel!
always most special to me
still
my friend after jc
jc over for me ready
you were what made it
so special
most memorable
(real)
jiayou!

HELLO HELLO I AM VERY EXCITED I WENT ON SPECIAL MISSION TODAY TO BEAUTY WORLD FOR SPECIAL PEOPLE. I HOPE THE POSTMAN WHOEVER HE IS THANKYOU-THANKYOU HURRY UP PLEASE.

then i went vivo city to meet ah huang. i change my mind again, vivo city's really very big!i think cos yesterday never walk all, it's really big, too big la sian i walk until my leg also pain and i feel very lost i need a map and mayb i should bring bread crumbs and drop them everywhere i go in case i lose my way.or mayb should use tomato sauce those squeezing kind, so many people the crumbs sure anyhow everywhere. tomato sauce easier arh whatever. ok then cos i was EARLY. haha omg first time hahaha. so i went bookshop! really nice ok, went to see picture books and omg i almost got addicted.

nice right. the second one's cool it's like in desert she's damn hot then she use a penguin hahaha. okay. then i went to read the absolut book also. it's really quite cool the pictures.

okay then i ate burger king. diet my ass. then geri came to meet us for awhile before rushing back for her gong hahaha. two of them just kept discussing gong they should form a gfc. (gong fanclub) then raisa and xian and everybody can all gong together.

anw i realised exam over ready i cannot ask my dad to fetch me anymore cos also not rushing and i had to wash dishes just now! i smell like mama lemon now. anw im doing face mask hahaha i cant move my face it's stuck i better go peel off soon so exciting. i hope i dont peel all my eye brows off cos i just realised i put all over it.

I CHANGE MY MIND BOUT THE WOOD THING. SIAO WHY NO INSTRUCTIONS NOT EXCITING AT ALL! AND I ERM JUST BROKE THE LEG OF THE DOG. HOWWWWWW. SIAN.

first, to shuyan, dont be sad! JIAYOU!we're waiting for you to join us!

ok so i went with vivocity with my family today finally!first time! haha ok andy lau is going to say he went there one million times ready and im so slow nvm. anw it's not as big as i thought. anw meow was bored so she came to join my family! you know there were people in onion rings, burger and drinks outfit. then i wanted to take with them! but my sis and mum really didnt want and by the time meow reached they left ready!=( but we found another weird person to take photo with haha










then we went pass the doulos ship. it's the ship that sails everywhere selling books and now it's in singapore! till dunno when but too crowded so we didnt go up. so cool i wanna sail around the world too! but it means i have to eat fish everyday sian.

then went IMM to meet pris and ah huang. funny. huang got attacked by a really big drop of water right on her nose i really couldnt stop laughing, i meant to be concerned k haha but it's really funny her face. and funny pris said she binged(3 pieces of bread.). haha i eat buffet every meal if this is the case. oh this reminds me, im supposed to go on diet oh no die ok tmr!!

anw i just bought this woodcraft art thing to do. very cool. it looks very complicated and got no instructions so exciting. i'll go do now!
tanxuan and me yesterday! anw everybody i see keeps telling me i never reply them. really meh! i got reply what right. got ghost i think haha. why so many ghosts.







anw huiyi and caitou are liberated tomorrow! CONGRATS!

i finished desperate housewives today!:) finally omg. jieying and i were supposed to meet to celebrate her birthday(PRIORITY) but cos we love our tv too much, we watched tv all day until we didnt even meet. she watched gong nonstop and didnt sleep last night!! madness! anw so after the many many hours of tv i left house and rushed to carmen's church!:)) yay.

then met tanxuan for dinner, meridien food court's korean food really verynice:)) then we went to hear pple sing and the waitresses etc were quite pui before that so when they gave me change, there was 7 bucks (3 $2notes and one $1 coin) i wanted to take all including receipt ok. then i just took the notes then she kiap the thing and left!cheat my one buck!plus receipt! then cos there were no seats we had to sit at the waiting area, and the seat's too small for my big butt!and the drink is like 3 or 4cm high with ice in a small cup!we were saying every sip is one buck plus k. then we went at the wrong time so must wait v long for the woman to start singing and when the woman sang we could only see a pillar cos the waiting area's blocked! then people kept smoking until i felt like i had two cigarettes up in my nostrils and the woman today's different from last time, she plays keyboard and sings v well but too loud and crowded and sleepy so we decided today's the wrong day and left after two half songs haha. but well i had fun,the company's enough:)

anw i think it's really funny.
today geri went swimming and on her way back this woman asked her which secondary school she's from then she said uh? then the woman said sorry sorry which ******* school u from!
and tanxuan's mum joined some yoga class in some community centre with many aunties and uncles. then there was this time they had to bend down, then while bending, this uncle farted. haha then some laughed and they said ok nvm try again, and the second time they bent................. he farted even louder!funny funny.

last,
to those still having exams,
JIAYOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
like siao!!(real)

RUBS TUMMY.

celebrating joy's birthday with the class!

HUGO JERM SIJIA DAIJING ME IN TOWN

and last but not least. the crazy cat running in water going on and on about upthrust at 3am.

i cant believe today is today
how can today be today
today cant be today cos
how come yesterday and yesterday and yesterdays past so quickly
i must be dreaming
but oh my
today is really today
it's really TODAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
so sad it's my last time wearing school u!!
i know my school u's very dirty
a lot of pen ink
a lot of this and that
but i likeeeee.
argh sad.
ok that's a small part of sadness
sad part 2,
no more studying at sim
















this used to be my view all the time
shuyan u understand why
and now no more
and dont know next time anymore anot.
and no more baked rice
big chicken pasta
tea
chicken rice
hot dog
from fake marche
no more!






























ok let me continue
then later will be the last time
i go to school
like really go sch
then now got magic gate i also dont need to open anymore
no more canteen food
no more nalu table
no more random friends you can bump into
no more not so close people u know cos maybe wont meet up
no more people you dunno but whole day see
no more everything
and most importantly
no more






























class.
i really love my class.
this is a very big no more k.
sigh
and shuyan haikel and me discussed about life for very long yesterday
yes
it could really be worse
much much worse
much much much worse.
jc life is good.
but goodness ends
today
sian
ok later when i go school i must appreciate the building
the air
the canteen tables and chairs
the cleaners they help us keep school clean
the toilets, i visit a lot
the canteen aunties uncles i like a lot
the lift (thankyou a lot)
the teachers, if i do see them
the lockers, you protect my bag,
the homeroom,
the everything
and most importantly
the people
who made my two years
such a WOW ride.
if i can only describe jc in one word
i can only say
wow.
thankyou.

today after singing for bout two hours to huiyi,
i decided singing is really very fun especially when u can anyhow sing
out of tune still sing
sing wrong key
sing different octave
anyhow add your own lyrics
dunno lyrics anyhow mumble
choose weird songs
anyhow add come on
sing sing sing until siao
SORRY I DISTURB U AND MAKE U HAVE HEADACHE
but thanks for letting me sit there sing two hours while u study your history
today's really too big a da bian
and anyhow-singing really made me happier.
so after i got home
im inspired to continue to anyhow-sing
then i went to my sis' room
then she was reading her amath testbook for the one millionth time
i tink examples she also can memorise ready
and dont need calculator can write down values
and know which page is which example
blablabla i hope u get what i mean
anw ya so i cannot sing to her
so i went my room
and i picked up my guitar
really dusty ready
and i just went to search for chords
and i just anyhow sang to myself! hahaha
even though my guitar's super out of tune
im too lazy to tune
forget about today
anw i wont know until very long later
i'll just anyhow sing and be happy
anybody wanna listen???!!
i sing for you
anw i think im siao ready
monologue so long
but sister studying dont wanna talk to meeeeee
and my phone no batt
im too lazy to charge
haha im in my own world
of weird songs and
my off tuned guitar.

G Bm
And everything I had in this world
C Am
And all that I'll ever be
C Am
It could all fall down around me.
C G
Just as long as I have you,Right here by me.
oh my i love this song.















anyway THIS WILL BE OUR STAGE. SOON!!!
please buy ear plugs. hahahaha

dear sleep ghost
i dunno if your there got computer
but i have important thing to tell u.
please dont possess me today please.
yesterday cos of you i wore contacts to slp till 4 am plus plus
now my eyes still weird
and i havent taken out yet oh ya shit
ya please let me study tonight
dont anyhow come and find me
i almost had heart attack when i woke this morning
econs read few pages
chem never read through
you want me to die like you is it
wait many many more years la
dont come and possess me tonight
i got a lot of things to study
i dont wanna sleep unknowingly again
thankyou.
zzzzzzzzz,
grace lim.


wasting pen ink for five hours fifteen minutes tmr!!!

and i really feel like puking listening to songs in my mp3
i think i listen to every song like 72542374621 times already
omg
and every radio station keeps talking
ahhhhhh.
someone sing to me.



When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

this song can?

boliao la
what am i doing
ok
i go and sing this to myself now
and fix myself
and study
what am i doing
im meeting life-sucks-friend in 7plus hours
hope it doesnt suck tmr!

you all make studying such a pleasure.

thanks for studying with me!

psychotic, crazy, biantai, sjb but

yes,

i'll miss it.

awhile more!

JIAYOU!

today i realised i really have nice teachers. like mr chem always come and ask if im ok and he photostat answers for me when i didnt ask and ms math messaged me to ask if i need help and ms econs gave me biscuits and always help me with those mcqs and ms gp listened to me rant and she messaged to wish me luck for chem today when i was really freaked and miss pe and miss pe number two also very nice and well mr physics is quite funny too. ok just thinking.

and we realised nowadays i like sad songs a lot.
and i missed facelift today cos we had chem in the morning. i really like to watch and i wanna go around to decorate people's room and make them happy too. so fun. i wanna change my whole room after as too. but now i'll just sing more sad songs.

i made a cat cry yesterday HAHA.
and i need to study hard.
and jieying sings really well.
and i just ate very salty salted fish =s
and im super random
and i should be doing ionic equilibria
and i think i should go and do
and i feel like singing
and jieying will kill me if i start
and i dont care
and good luck to her
and im wasting time
and im typing rubbish
and everybody jiayou!
and that's not rubbish .

Everybody wants to be loved
Every once in a while
We all need someone to hold on to
Just like a helpless child
Can you whisper in my ear
Let me know its all right
It's been a long time coming down this road
and now I know what I've been waiting for
and like a lonely highway
I'm trying to get home, oohooh
Love's been a long time coming.
You can love for a lifetime
You could love for a day
You can think you've got everything but
Everything is nothing when you throw it away
Then you look in my eyes
And I have it all once again
Didn't know I was lost
Till you found me
Didn't know I was blind
But now I see
Can you whisper in my ear
Let me know its all right
It's been a long time coming down this road
And now I know what I've been searching for
Been a long, long highway
And now I see oohooh
Love's been a long time
Oh been a long time
Love's been a long time coming.

you know i always think i'll be strong and i'll make myself and i'll make myself believe i am and i'll feel ok and dont care and really put it away and then again i'll realise im not strong i was fooling myself i care like da bian i never moved an inch and im really quite frail and i cannot ..

study hard tmd and dont anyhow please grace lim.

and thankyou friends who comfort me when my xtr(richie)

i don't like things to change.
i really dont like.
i really really really really dont like.

everybody go and drink oil!
i need A LOT A LOT A LOT.
fat
aiyo
8hours more
and today was scary
cos i read stuff for gp
all the exciting stuff
abortion
euthanasia
animals
singapore
blablabla
and i was actually enjoying it
then i felt like some taitai
sitting at cafe at afternoon
reading stuff
so weird
didnt feel like As is tmr
so i was v scared
but i can only read what
for gp
so i was leisurely
BUT NOW
I TOTALLY FEEL AS IS TMR
byebye
im gonna faint

and i realised i havent had the laugh-a-lot-cannot-stop-stomachach-cannot-breathe-still-laugh-and-laugh-and-laugh(lalcsscbslalal) laughter for veryveryvery long.
when was the last time u lalcsscbslalal? haha i invented a new word.
i remember secondary school that time we'll always lalcsscbslalal and the teacher will scold n we'll lalcsscbslalal even more. i think that was like when rotten nose was teaching us. omg remember we used to call her that aiyo so mean. and i think sec one n two linying and rushan always made me lalcsscbslalal i think i cant rememeber actually. oh and i remember when we were discussing bout ABC in sec two, we sat in front of our comp using msn we lalcsscbslalal like really siao and xinyu or huiyi lalcsscbslalal until she banged her head on the keyboard. hahaha. i wanna lalcsscbslalal again!

and now the only people who still lalcsscbslalal around me's like dawn and huiyi only!
are we old already?
someone make me lalcsscbslalal please.
ok and what am i doing
bye bye you
hello chemistry.

shuyan for you, your favourite.

sister, i wanna put your favourite for you too, but we're supposed to be cool remember. so we'll stick to ur mp3.hahaha

THANK

you. for coming all the way to sim
really happy
carpe diem

you.for listening to oldies older than mine
really happy
we'll be same age when we're old. HAHA

Wishing on a shooting star
But dreams alone won’t get you far
Can’t deny your feelings anymore
The world is waiting right outside your door
What are you waiting for
Come on, here’s your chance
Don’t let it slip right through your hands
Are you ready for the ride of your life
Your dreams are riding on the wind
Just reach out and pull them in
And get ready for the ride of your life
In your heart you know what you must do
You only got yourself to answer to
Don’t let fear of falling hold you down
Your spirits flying high above the clouds
You’re glory bound Come on here’s your chance
Don’t let it slip right through your hands
Are you ready for the ride of your life
Your dreams are riding on the wind
Just reach out and pull them in and
Get ready for the ride of your life
You're on your way no looking back
There’s no future living in the past
You’re free at last yeah
You’re free at last
Come on here’s your chance
Don’t let it slip right through your hands
Are you ready for the ride of your life, yeah
Your dreams are riding on the wind
Just reach out and pull them in and
Get ready for the ride of your life
The ride of your life
Come on, come on, get ready Yea, yea, yea
Your dreams are riding on the wind
Just reach out and pull them in
Get ready for the ride of your life




i heard this in huiyi's mp3 while studying until i wanna puke and *BOMB* it jolted me back to reality!
really ride of my life in 3 days! jiu ming. im still struggling to find safety belt im not ready for the ride.
what talking me ok this is the closest to twelve im blogging yay
and i just read a blog insulting nanyang.
^*$#$%^%^@!@#)(*^!!!!

no time no time
i keep sleeping
even more no time
i think my day is half of others
i dunno why need to sleep so much
but i just wake up every morning
knowing that i fell asleep studying
i used to get very freaked
that i just slp like that
and i wake up very freaked
as though my heart's the centre of gravity
but im used to it now
i just wake up feeling very tmd
that again
and it repeats
again
and again
and again again
argh.
and five days more only
and minus sleeping
which is a lot
there's no time left
and i still keep thinking emo thoughts
they keep attacking me
i must block block block!
i think too much!
but not think about work
how!
i can only think of physicschemmathecons
okay
okay okay
stop being emo la tmd!
i must play richie ren on repeat hahaha
okay shall go clear my brain
and think intellectual thoughts now!
everybody study hard!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'll slp on your behalf. argh

anw today's entry is dedicated to a stanger
i still dunno who he is
but he is veryveryveryveryveryveryveryvery nice like sjb

so i was lying on my sofa,sick and feeling tmd
then the phone rang
then i picked up
then it was the security guard and he told me
"you lost your wallet right"
then i "huh really"
then he asked me to go down to take
cos i didnt even know
cos sick then i just stayed home to slp
didnt even check my wallet
and i thought the security guard made a mistake
so i went down
in PYJAMAS AND SPECS
and at the guard house
there was some cute guy
and he passed me my wallet!
he came all the way to my house to give me
after he picked up from the bus!
so nice omg
and inside got 40 bucks
he never take
can buy like
13 and one third shihlins u know
ok it doesnt sound much
erm can buy
100 cups of soya bean from rj fruit stall!!
and i couldnt thank properly
cos he left very fast
but veryveryveryvery nice
THANK YOU stranger

and my sis says he must be truly very nice
considering he saw my ez link
i really think so
hahaha.


and my house is like a hotel
we on air con whole house cos haze
very nice


and math is really not nice.
im going to see huiyi soon
byebye

HELLO HELLO EH TESTING TESTING
can see already?????!!!!!!!!yay ok.

testing testing TESTINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
why cannot seeeeeee
argh

i feel cold hot cold hot cold hot cold hot cold?! hot?! cold??! hot?!!! sick.

fever fever go away,
come again another day (or dont come)
little children little children
little children want to study

i've been very lost these few days, really dont remember what i've been doing, everything just seems hazy. anw havent been blogging, i slept at 9pm for two days yuck. so since i slept at 9 of cos i didnt study for my math mock and yesterday's math mock was hell ok. i finished in one hour plus cos all blank and i took out my notes and spent the last one hour studying stats since i cant do. !%^(*^&^$%^#W^%&*&(*%%#$^^(*&%%$#%%**(*)(*&^%$#@!!!
and i think im really a mugger. you know yesterday i woke up at 4am plus in shock that i slept on the sofa at 9pm and i was holding a mug! i think when i was sleeping my dad passed me a mug water then i drank and just held it till morning. cool right it actually didnt drop omg.
anw i talked to some unexpected person and it made me unexpectedly happier and unexpectedly enlightened and unexpectedly rewarded cos she's unexpectedly nice considering i unexpectedly talk to her and i bet i was unexpected too.thankyou ms soh.
and bad things never stop coming. cos we only look at the bad things coming. good things come too, in fact things just keep coming we just cant help dwelling on the bad ones. but why now [bad things]>>>bad and good things] such that [bad and gd things] ~ [bad]
im going to surprise liling with ice cream, it's her bday! byebye

I BLOG AT ONE!!!!!!!

haha ok night.

and i checked my phone today

"drink more water

daddy with love"

and after dinner

a bowl of fruits from my mum

and i went out

"come home early:) family wif luv"

and when i came home again

and everyone was asleep

and i opened my door

and the aircon was on

the perfect temperature for sleep

and i smiled

there's no place like home.

and i look at the correction tape on the table

and i laugh to myself

i think it's sweeter

than real chocolates itself

and i receive messages

of concern: my health,

my mood, my studies,

my life myself.

and i think to myself

such sweet people around

and i smiled again

life's not really a pain.

i just found out that my friend didn't sleep last night and came to sch for lessons!! omg! how can! aiyo kids nowadays ar.... later fall sick how!!! sleep so little sure fall sick. eh but then again.. WHY AM I SICK! I SLP SO SO SO SO SO MUCH STILL SICK?!?! world's biggest irony argh.
anw i think i should change this blog name. i never ever blog at 12! argh ok i'll try to tonight, hope i dont fall asleep studying again.




the world's deadliest bombs.
(hongmin,daijing and my breath!)

i didnt blog at twelve again. 3 days ready! argh really cant stay up! i keep sleeping i dunno why. i dont think it's the medicine (by the way i have 5 different pills, 1 cough mixture, 1 nose spray, eye drops, 1 vitamin c, OMG). i dunno why! argh
and my phone has no batt for bout 2 days ready, i keep falling asleep so i never charge my phone. and my mp3 also no batt. and i think i also have no more batt. feel so tired and sick and screwed and =S. grace lim wake up! if i continue at this rate im gonna die for As. omgggggggggggggggggggg stressed.

ok i shall go charge everything now, my phone, my mp3, my life.

sigh OBAT failed! (operation blog at twelve) second day only den i fell asleep ready tmd. please let me stay up please let me stay up please let me stay up and start studying.
anyway yesterday i just felt like a

during consultation with ms koh, after consultation, during lunch, before mock exam, throughout 3 hours math mock exam, after math mock exam, ok maybe just the entire time. argh im so sick of feeling like da bian but i cant help it. im so sick of myself and im so sick. i hate coughing.

and my eye hurt the whole day yesterday. it's the vein i guess. from coughing too much. and i told mummy last night n she said her doc's sis coughed too hard her eye sth blood vessel burst n luckily she went hospital else she would have gone blind. omg i dont want my eye to burst! but it hurts. pleasedont let me cough, please dont let me cough anymore.

and i found new comfort food: guilinggao!

hello to you stop singing.

everything is very weird i don't know why everything's in chinese and my comp cant read chinese. anyway i wanted to use livejournal cos meow says it's cooler but being the smart pui i am i keyed in my date of birth as 2005, i also dunno why, and now they want my parent to verify and stuff!huh. ant they want credit card number.huh huh. i only have ez link. so i cant use. argh i'll try next time.
anyway today's the last lastlast day of school.so fast!so ____________. (i feel everything so u can fill in whatever u feel i feel)
anw had good talk with caitou and meow.they make me realise stuff and make me grow up. i feel wiser ready. and we bought tigger for hugo,she looked so happy, yay. and currently i'm playing he-who-shall-not-be-named's song, i really feel him. meow and i were singing and eeeee it's freaky how it's written for me. ok.
i love photographs, they really paint a thosand works ok, though during photos during oral exams paint zero words to me. anw yes, photos transport you back in time and they just say so much and bring u closest back to the time and when u look at one photo it may be simple but u know there's a lot and everyone looks at the same photo differently and blablabla, photos are just nice.



and i hate farewells.